Day 1: Morning! #photoadayJune #letstrythisagain
June12012
May292012
An Untitled Collaboration
Note: This has had very few edits, as in three. It was composed in the wee hours of the morning with a dear friend and is my first collaboration ever. Be gentle dear readers.
There lives the sweetest ignorance deep inside lies
like a parent giving consolation during a hurricane
because sin is easy on the conscious when nobody believes in heaven or hell
grey matter, brains neither black nor white,
gasping for air in a world where we’ve lost the ability to feel
empathy like novocain, stares and strangers with eyes lacking love
waiting to die young and become raised up like a martyr
instead of living the everyman’s life
self doubt, the most beautiful of all flowers, like blood from a rose thorn’s prick
pumping through bodies. The man and his guitar on the street corner,
dressed in his Sunday best, each note a silent prayer.
May272012
Conversations with friends
Life is a funny thing. You think you have it all figured out until you know you don’t. I find it amusing how much I learn about myself all of the time. Everyday I learn something new about myself and about the world. Sometimes these lessons come from people I expect them to and sometimes they come from complete strangers. People I know nothing or very little about until I find myself enlightened. I’ve had a number of deep conversations lately with various people. I don’t always like what I’m finding but that’s life, isn’t it?
A friend asked me if I believed in God. I didn’t (and still don’t) know how to answer him and I don’t know if I believe in God. I do believe that we’re all connected in some way and that life is more than who we are but I don’t know if that bigger thing is God. I’ve always had a little bit of anxiety and generally care too much about what others think and I wish it wasn’t so. I believe that people walk in and out of our lives for a reason and change isn’t so scary when you’re the one leaving and it might be selfish but I want to be the one who leaves for a change. I think that we’re all too self-absorbed and need to learn to take a step back and just be. Let the birds’ sweet song wake you up to watch the sun rise one morning. Read more books and watch less TV. Listen to what others have to say but if it doesn’t feel right abandon ship and find your wings, because you do have them. Sometimes it’s just a matter of finding them. And for those moments when you have a head full of thoughts threatening to break you but no words let the music speak for you.
I had another conversation with a friend, who is legitimately to smart for her own damn good, today about how I’m living life. She was trying to help but it backfired. See, I’ve been more content with life in the past two weeks than I have for a while. At least I was. She fed me the if-you-get-an-assistant-you’ll-be-more-independent-and-happier spiel and I refuse. I’m doing just fine, thankyouverymuch and if you’re worried, don’t be. It’s as simple as that. You’re not supposed to leave your friends feeling unworthy or incapable. Empower them!
Finally, I spent an hour and a half on the phone with someone who really is one of my best friends in the entire world today. He sent me a text saying he might be giving me the best birthday gift ever and then he called me. I missed the call but when I called him back he said he might be moving back to Moscow to finish school! That really would be the best birthday gift ever! It wouldn’t be until the fall but it’ll be so nice to have someone around who doesn’t judge me but instead just supports me in areas of my life I want to change (and, oh, the areas of my life that need to change) and he makes me laugh and gives the best hugs! An hour and a half went by so fast. I can’t wait until Tuesday!
May152012
“I maintain that every civil rights bill in this country was passed for white people, not for black people. For example, I am black. I know that. I also know that while I am black I am a human being. Therefore I have the right to go into any public place. White people don’t know that. Every time I tried to go into a public place they stopped me. So some boys had to write a bill to tell that white man, “He’s a human being; don’t stop him.” That bill was for the white man, not for me. I knew I could vote all the time and that it wasn’t a privilege but my right. Every time I tried I was shot, killed or jailed, beaten or economically deprived. So somebody had to write a bill to tell white people, “When a black man comes to vote, don’t bother him.” That bill was for white people.”
Stokely Carmichael (via iwasabearonce)
(via afternoonsnoozebutton)
4AM
Day 4: Fun!
Margaritas and Mexican Food with Fabulous Friends!
Also, A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To The Forum.
May42012
Day 3: Something I Wore Today
It was cold and rainy.
2AM
Day 2: Skyline
Well, sort of! As close as we’re going to get in Moscow!
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